Correction - pg. 142

And so, while I loved Altensam more than anything in the world, because Altensam has always been closer to me than anything in the world, because I've always a foreign element there from the outset, and all my life, my whole existence, my deathward existence, had always been determined by that circumstance, causing a monstrous waste of all my energies. The question has always been only, how can I go on at all, not in what respect and in what condition, so Roithamer.