India: A Million Mutinies Now - pg. 387

'I felt relief to be back here (from Pakistan). That sense of belonging, which I had in India, I knew I couldn't find anywhere else. Yet I also know that I can never be a complete person now. I can't ignore partition. It's a part of me. I feel rudderless. If there had been no paartition I might have been a married man with all the paraphernalia of a middle-class Muslim existence. But I've lived all my life so far as a bachelor, and it's now too late for me to change. The creation and existence of Pakistan has damaged a part of my psyche. I simply cannot pretend that life goes on, and I can have the normal full emotional life, as though what had been here before is still around me.'