Nazi Literature In The Americas - pg. 21

The failure of her marriage plunged Luz into despair.
She took to drinking in dives and having affairs with some
of the most unsavory individuals in Buenos Aires. Her
well-known poem "I Was Happy with Hitler", misunderstood
by the Right and the Left alike, dates from this period. Her mother
tried to send her to Europe, but Luz refused. At the time she
weighed more than two hundred pounds (she was only five foot
two inches tall) and was drinking a bottle of whisky a day.

In 1953, the year in which Stalin and Dylan Thomas died, she
published the collection Tango of Buenos Aires, which, as
well as a revised edition of "I Was Happy with Hitler," contained
some of her finest poems: "Stalin," a chaotic fable set among
bottles of vodka and incomprehensible shrieks; "Self Portrait,"
one of the cruelest poems written in Argentina which is no mean
claim; "Luz Mendiluce and Love," in the same vein as her
self-portrait, but with doses of irony and black humor, which make
it somewhat less grueling, and "Apocalypse at Fifty," a promise to
kill herself when she reached that age, which those who knew her
regarded as optimistic: given her lifestyle, Luz Mendiluce would
be lucky to reach the age of thirty.